A Suitcase Full Of Memories

She Stands There, As I walk out the door with suitcases full of memories, This was the last time I will see her. If I would've known that I would've thought of something else to say. Besides "BYE". Even tho this Happened 31 years ago, I remember if it was yesterday. I Loved Mary and Mary Loved Me. But I was young and very dumb back then, I thought I was Ron O'Neil, or Mr. Super fly Jive Cat. You see back then I was the Man in my Neighborhood. I dressed the best, I had my Cadillac and I also had Mary. We went to High school together. She had this Big Afro and the Most beautiful eyes and lips I've ever seen. At first she didn't give me the time of day, because I guess she thought I was just a Bad Guy. Because, My perception was....Well I don't really know what them Jive Turkeys thought about me. But I do know I was becoming the Man I don't like. I remember the first time we spoke, She asked me what time it was and I said in The Smoothest hippest voice possible. "It's eleven twenty twoooo Baby Cakes". She Smiled and said "Thank you, and The Name is Mary" and she walked away and I Fell in Love. We dated for A bit and I took her to our Prom. It was one of the best times I've ever had to this day, We was the Funkiest couple there.
As time went on and we graduated, our relationship had gotten stronger, years past and we were still together but in the mist of our relationship was the Drugs, You see in the 70's. Cocaine and Marijuana was new and it hit the inner cites like wild fire, and I have to admit I was on it as well. Imean I wasn't A Junkie but I would take A Hit from time to time. Mary didn't like that one bit. Well, she pretty much hated it. She was Anti drugs, Anti Hate and Anti everything that wasn't peaceful, She was an Amazing woman and I think about her alot. I think about how my life would have gone if I would've stayed with her. But life teaches us that we make mistakes. And I have to admit it was A mistake leavin' her like that. But the saddest part of it all is that. I don't even remember what the Argument was about. All I remember is the last moment I seen her. She had tears in her beautiful eyes and I Just Left out the door. I believe that it wasn't just that Argument, I believe that it was just a bunch things, Like I said before I was young and Dumb and didn't Realize I had An Angel by my side.
I've been Married for 20 years. I have 7 children and 3 grand children and A Beautiful Home. I Love my family and I'm fairly happy how my life turned out. I'm blessed in so many ways, But I feel empty in my heart. I can't explain it, Maybe I'm Crazy, But I don't think so. Mary has always been A book that I haven't Finished and I want to finish that book. I want to Know how she's doing and How she is living. I wanna so many things about Mary. But I Just can't find her. It drives me crazy sometimes but I'm use to it now. But Before I leave this place. I want to see her beautiful Eyes and Her Wonderful Smile once again. I want to know how it feels to be in Love again. If that happens I would die A Happy Man.


-Richard P.

Written By Darren Talent

I HATE MY JOB!!!!

Journal Entry 147.

I AM TIRED OF THIS!!, Runnin' around this damn office being A slave for this chump Change. Taking the same got damn train seeing the same got damn people. Waking up at the crack of dawn, I was soooo tired this morning, I was 5 seconds away from calling in and telling them I QUIT!!!, that's what I should've done a long time ago but NO! I stay here and run around like a Paper boy, I HATE MR. FRANKLIN, he thinks that since he's the boss he can tell people what to do, I Mean he can tell us what to do, But the way he does it, Like he is our superior. Like he's Mr. GOD ALMIGHTY. I swear if I ever seen him in a Dark alley I would rob that Sucker Blind, because he ain't paying much anyway, the work that I be doing I should get A lot more then what I'm getting Paid, I think its because I'm BLACK, Or they just don't wanna respect me. But I got news for these motherfuckers, If things don't change around here soon, its going to be some heads rolling and some broken fax machines. Because this is the last STRAW, only reason why I didn't flip yet is because I enjoy Mrs. Johnson's Fine ass walking through these isles, I SWEAR TO GOD she looks like Halle Berry, but if it wasn't for her, this Place would've been UPSIDE DOWN, WITH BLOOD SHED EVERYWHERE!!, on some real shit, but tomorrow is another day and I have to come back to this DUMP, I HATE MY JOB!!!!!!!!!!

Kareem.

-Written By Darren Talent.

To All People In A Relationship

Have U ever wondered how Faithful your mate is (?), Of course you have!!, Imean its perfectly normal to question things of that Nature, But now I want you to ask yourself. Do you trust your mate (?), That's the mother of all questions in a relationship, especially on the female side, because most of yall know. If ya man had A choice between you and someone who looked like Keri Hilson, Lets just say, you would be single. Which is Unfortunate, but true for most relationships. But if the shoe was on the other foot and lets say, someone like Trey Songz came up to you and was interested, Yall would think twice about it, some of yall won't, but most of yall would, compared to Ya boyfriend, He wouldn't think twice about sexin' A Keri Hilson Look-A-Like, What I am gettin' to is that. Most Relationships Fail because of the simple fact one person likes the other more. Meanin' The Man likes the female more or the Female like the male more, and in both situations The person who likes more, can put pressure on their mate. Which causes uncertainty in actions. Because one person is going to feel like they are puttin' more Effort in to the relationship then the other, Which is most likely going to be true.
NOW with all of that said, WOMAN DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY WANT!, why do U think Woman stay in stores for hours at a time. BUT even tho they like to look around and think and think and think, Sit down and think and Think and Think some more, If they see something they want, THEY WANT IT, and will try everything in their power to get it. Just Like in their relationships, Once A Female feels as tho they have a "GOOD MAN", They will attach themselves to him, Which puts pressure on the Guy, which can be dangerous and Most likely something you don't want to do, Because as Men. We think with our.......Well, You know what I'm goin' to say, which is a Myth by the way, But...The sample size is to large for it to be A Myth. Now, We in our nature are attracted to Beautiful females. WE CAN'T HELP IT!!, But Woman don't realize The power they potentially have. Especially in a relationship Because if you are a ''GOOD Woman" and your man knows that you are, if He's a Thinkin' Man, then he's not going to cheat...Well he's gonna think twice about cheatin' on you. The thinkin' man is not going to cheat because he feels as tho the risk doesn't out weight the reward, But If the thinkin' man Knows he has You and he knows that you realllyyy reallyyy like him, he may just attack your weakness, because if he knows your feelings for him are strong he also knows he has some Le-way and he knows he can get away with certain things, BUT again if the shoe was on the Other foot The woman may act like they are doin' something behind your back and Threaten with something like, "I'm going out tonight", but its all A BIG BLUFF, Because its in a Woman's Nature to Love and take care of things that's theirs, Some woman just don't have the heart to cheat.
Woman and Men are Made for each other, but that doesn't Mean we choose correctly, Most of Us don't and most of us have different things in mind, Like Sex, Money, Benefits, or A Trend/ The In thing to do, etc. I will touch on those subjects another time, Because I have wondered when then the Words "Wifey" and "Hubby" Become A Fashion Accessory, It really pisses me off, But with that said, If the Relationship isn't 50/50, It has a 92.9% Chance of Failin'. So Look closely in to your relationship and examine your Mate's actions.


-Written By Darren Talent.

Dear Female

Dear Female,

I Know you May have feelings for me and you may have thought I had feelings for you, But things have changed these past couple of days. I know It seems I have lead you on. And if that's the case, I am sincerely sorry. My interest in you has taken a massive decline. I can't say what it was because honestly I don't know. But I do know this. I am A Person that Loves to be Challenged and if I don't get Challenged I get bored and when I get bored I get dis-interested and when I get dis-interested I don't want to be Bothered. You see Sweetheart its all cause and effect. You didn't do nothing wrong at all but I don't think you are the one for me. With that said hun, It was a Pleasure havin' conversations with you and I wish you luck in your future relations with Men.

Love,
Darren Talent

Dear Melissa

Dear Melissa,

How can I start this....I guess I will start by saying this. Remember in June when I told U I was going to visit my cousin in Philly, Well I have to confess. I didn't really go to Philly and I really didn't go to see my cousin. I was in The Bronx with A female friend of Mine. She use to be a Classmate of mine in college. I knew her before I knew you, which isn't important. but we felt as tho we had un-finished business. We have never dated previously. So, I guess that's the reason why it was so easy to engage with her. I spent the entire 2 weeks living with her and threaten her as she was you. I Know I'm wrong for that babe but it was something I had to do. Imean, at the time I wasn't happy with our relationship. If 43% Means Interest. 76% Must Mean LOVE. But 100% of myself to you I'm not ready for. Which I thought at the time. I was never giving my 100% to you babe. Because I Just wasn't ready. I had things I had to find out about myself before I can be truly committed to you. It was toooo many stones un-turned. But Now that it is December. I had more then enough time to think about where me and your relationship could be headed. I've decided to go with the other woman Melissa. I'm sooo sorry. This was one of the hardest decisions of my life. I know you are very upset right now, this is why you won't be hearing from me in the near future. Because I don't want your emotion to take over you, People have tendency to say things they really don't Mean when they are angry. So with that said. Don't call my phone because I change my number and don't try to email me because I have terminated the account. Again I'm sorry it has to end this way but I believe we can't be together. I will try to contact you down the line, that's if you ever want to speak to me again. GOOD LUCK with dealing with this. I know you we Overcome. But Remember this. Everyday the sun doesn't shine, Sometimes it has to rain.

Sincerely,
David.
-Written By Darren Talent.